Drinking, but also taking some action.

I've been drinking the last three days.

But I'm also taking action because I realize that I can not do this on my own. I need some support.

I have reached out for counseling and acupuncture.

I have appointments for both of them. I am going to be 100% honest.

I have been afraid of being honest due to shame and embarrassment, but also, if I fail at this, where do I go next?

I think I want the out and not being honest with people gives that to me.

I have been reading sober blogs and it is helping me so much. Even though I am drinking.

I have my first acupuncture appointment on Thursday. I had my first counseling appointment this morning.

We agreed that I would drink the rest of the alcohol in the house and that tomorrow is my new "quit" date.

At least she is realistic enough to know that I'm not going to come home and throw away the alcohol that is here, but I also promised her I would not stop and buy more. And I didn't.

I feel like instead of trying harder, I am trying something different.