Accidental Sobriety.

I planned on going to the doctor today, but I drove on past. I have a standing blood work order, so it's not like I blew off an appointment.

Maybe I'll find the courage Monday?

I've been reading. A lot. And eating. A lot. Eating helps. I like drinking on an empty stomach. I was accidentally sober that last two days because I forced myself to eat breakfast and lunch. I couldn't stomach the thought of drinking on a full stomach.

It's amazing; after two days of sobriety my blood sugar levels are "normal". Even after eating a ton of fruit and white pasta. I had white pasta with marinara (homemade so there was so sugar in the sauce) and tofu and cauliflower for dinner last night and then about an hour later had a smoothie made from an apple (seeded and cored, but not peeled), frozen banana, frozen blueberry, and ice. It was very satisfying and an hour after my carb fest, my blood sugar was 91. My fasting blood sugar yesterday was 83. Totally normal.

I am in awe how fast my body responds to sobriety. This is not something I can take for granted. And I'm sure my liver enzyme numbers are off the charts at best.

I have a huge project for work and I need to be 100% present for it.

Sober.