Another day 1

Here we go again.

First, I wanted to thank those who left me comments! Wow. It feels good to have that support.

I have decided that the extreme diet is definitely setting me up for failure, so thank you for the perspective.

I woke up this morning and started obsessing about drinking. I realized I needed to eat breakfast, so I made myself a lovely quick meal of kale, tofu, cherry tomatoes, garlic, celery, green olives and feta. It was delicious, and the obsession to drink is gone.

Fortunately, I love healthy food and am a good cook. I think the extreme diet was more of a way to punish myself.

I think I will check in here after lunch as well.

I am going to walk today, Hydrate. Eat well, Read, BREATHE.

One thing I noticed during the two and a half days of sobriety was that I wasn't as wracked with guilt and self loathing, because I gave myself a mantra to say whenever it started.

"You are forgiven" is going to replace all of the self hatred.

This is one of my favorite quotes or writing on guilt from the book Das Energi:

Guilt is a form of self-hatred. 
Also self-indulgence. 
No one benefits from your feeling guilty. 
Except you ------- you use guilt to shield yourself 
from the pain of awareness. 
When you short-circuit your energy, 
you cheat us all. 
Then use that as excuse for further short-circuiting. 
There is a way out of this trap. 
Don't feel guilty. 
Don't cop out. 
Accept responsibility for your actions. 
Do what's right. 
Don't live in the past. 
Learn from the past. 
Do right in the present.