Day 4

I HATE BEING SOBER.

The compulsion to drink is so strong. I just have to get through today, and tomorrow I will be in my first day of outpatient.

I know this feeling is normal.

Today is day 4. Fuck day 4.

I should eat some breakfast. Eating 3 meals a day is key.

I'm going to a women's meeting today at 2 pm.

I didn't go to a meeting yesterday. I laid around all day escaping into my book.

The day is victorious if I stay sober. That's all I have to do.

What a self indulgent fucking pathetic asshole I am.